Gaining strength through adversity

Today, I am so burdened with many worries in my life. I usually very sure that God is with me and working things out. However, I feel so much pressure today mainly because of these thought: when will God deliver my family and how long would it take? How much more would this sickness affect my family.

It is not easy to be the only one thinking positively in the family. Mom and dad worry about my brother so much that they are not getting peaceful mind everyday. The last time I saw dad he has lost a lot of weight. A few days back, mom called me about her visit to the doctor and she was prescribed drugs for depression.

With all these, I do not know what to do now as the only sister who is available to help the family. My heart is for my family and long to be with them and yet I love my work life here in KL.

Before I graduated, the Lord put a calling in my heart to minister and serve my family back in Malaysia. Should I take up the call, I do not know. I am rebelling to receive the call and yet I know I cannot run away now. I keep praying that the Lord to show me directions.

Third Chemo treatment

Brother is on a third chemo treatment. I got a phone call from mom asking for prayer. This time around, stronger drugs are ministered to my brother. First drug will be given for two days and second for four days. In other words, two stronger drugs are administered for the first two days and the last two days ends with the second drugs.

I heard from mom that Aaron gets tired easily and sleep throughout the day. Unlike previous treatment he is more unconcious.

Although I don't like going through this season where my brother is in the hospital, I believe the LOrd is doing something and I must remain in faith. Amen