Burdened heart

I can't help it. I feel helpless. I do not know what to do. I see mom with her sad face and all the depressing words she uttered from her mouth; the vivid memo graphic of her head frowning, crying and helplessness really test my patience. Other than making her a glass of milk, encouraging her with positive words, and giving her medicine I feel helpless because I cannot do more than that. I want to make her happy, yet, I have done the best I could to attend to her. I tried encouraging her gently by guiding her hand while assuring her to stand up for a walk around the room, or perhaps out from the room. Seeing her just lying on the bed motionless really breaks my heart. I have not known her that way before. I remember she always nag around the house and making herself busy with house chores and meal cooking. I missed her presence walking around the house.

I feel very heavy burdened about my mother's situation, yet, I believe everything is well in God's hand. He is my strength through this adversity.

Aaron has started today as the first day of his 5th chemo treatment. He looks stronger and much better than he used to be. I was there for his 1st chemo and things were very complicated yet thanks to be the Lord that he was able to go through the pain and suffering well. He is a good and strong boy.

Today, I had to cook lunch and dinner for Aaron. It is tiring and I may lost the perspective of cooking too much ( you will come to a point that you cannot remember what and how to cook) so I decided to find a way to loosen a little bit and to celebrate my progress of cooking all sorts of dishes by chilling at Yoyo for a iced blended red bean with pearl and good chat with my cousins.